#it's not but ill lose this otherwise

[420technoblazeit]

every once in a while i think about endverse destiel and feel like throwing up btw it drives me insane. theoretically since they only have each other they should be closer than ever. but in this world they aren't. cas has given up on life and spends every second stoned out of his mind so he can remain in blissful ignorance because he feels like he can't be useful to anyone without his powers. dean's crumbling under the guilt of failing everyone and the pressure of having to lead. he's forced to make harder and harder decisions for the sake of the group, not even realizing that he's becoming more like john with every passing day

it's just a worse, even more unbearable version of their dynamic in late season 5 because cas doesnt think he's even worth keeping around anymore. he's fallen for dean but it's cost him so much that he'd rather bury his head in the sand and wait for death to take him. he'll still follow dean anywhere but he doesnt know why he even wants him around at this point when he cant do anything to help. and dean knows that it's his fault that cas is human now, knows that he dragged him into a losing battle with nothing to show for it and he hates himself for it. hates that no matter how angry and ruthless he gets cas will stay until the bitter end

[usertoxicyaoi]

"I never noticed until now that he feels this way towards me. I thought I was worthless. I shut my ears to it. What's this? My heart hurts. I can't breathe."

MY PERSONAL WEATHERMAN (2023). Episode 8.

[lagomorphics]

ive gone back to desperately trying to recall that one food again. this is like torture

[pup-pee]

@mbirnsings-71 bad boys

[heyitsmemel]

I'm just... losing my mind over the thought of someone coming from a wealthy or refined background who has had perfect etiquette and decorum drilled into them that they can't drop it even if they tried. Someone who looks and acts so incredibly proper and put together, the type of person who always says sorry or excuse me after coughing or sneezing.... coming undone with a terrible cold or flu. They feel so horribly sick they don't even have the energy to excuse themselves. Their LACK of their otherwise perfect manners is a sign to their friends or partner that something is seriously wrong with them and that they are down BAD.

[divorceblogger]

mental illness speedrun

[loveandlegacy]

one thing i hope we in the united states get over like. sooner rather than later is the specter of "chinese censorship". i occasionally encounter people saying that riot, a famously regressive company in a famously regressive industry, won't just say viktor and jayce are in love because of censors in china and it's just like ok. i just don't think that's true. i think the call is coming from inside the house

[milkweedman]

Not me putting off trying my wheel again bc im afraid that even on a 'good day' I might not be able to treadle. Hah. :/

Edit: OK either im not on a good day or else my good days are now hell, so I guess I will be avoiding the wheel out of sheer emotional self preservation

[spaghett-onaplate]

noooo i got covid 😭😭

[volfoss]

Pretty happy to get 25% thru this book tonight tbh! Hoping to get 50-60% thru tomorrow if all goes well :)

[ethan-acfan]

I need an spn streamer au fic with destiel, sabriel, and michadam like right neow

[grantihare]

this house is a fucking nightmare look at the bathroom door ☠

that black is a robe hanging on the other side!! my in-laws dog keeps tearing a hole in it whenever its closed or people are asleep and theyre like "we cant replace it shell just do it again" ??? yall this is the Only Bathroom for Six People how are you gonna leave a hole bigger than a frozen pizza box in it 😭

[altruistic-meme]

love that the last 15min im gonna be at work are break lmao im just gonna sit here for 15min and then leave

[doodlebeeberry]

[suncast-moth]

Yall, the fuck am i supposed to do when I have am unwanted houseguest and can't fucking sleep because they're inconsiderate of the fact that they're sleeping over at ANOTHER PERSON'S house and that the friend they're sleeping over with HAS A ROOMMATE, and won't fucking sleep without a stupid laptop open. Bitch didn't even ASK if they could have the laptop open. No asking. At all.

Inconsiderate fucking brat, and I can't even fucking drink or sleep downstairs.

[wewerebornsextuplets]

almost done with chapter 2 of that thing i started writing earlier this month which means i may start posting it tonight